.:a Luver is one who accepts ur past, support ur presents & encourages ur future:.

2009-04-29T21:54:00.007+08:00

hey you...yes you!! who else has been reading my gurl's blog

other than u...??

1st & foremost, hensem tk aku?? hensem kn??

mmg tk sia2..ku tau...

atlaz i got to update her own blog..., i noe her true story..

so juz let me e one to tell u watz happening 2 my one & only Kakak@ Aunt Sexy!!

dis gurl on top yg tak tau malu amek gambar dgn bantal 'wangi'

dier nie tgh strez...few wks ago she spent her wkend :

sending wedding cards to her relatives & frens etc..(1 S'pore die nk jemput agaknye!)
uat berkat die (keje yg tk abis2!! berkotak2 byk nyer...)
nk prepare plan list for her big day
nk kemas kain baju dier masok kotak.. (walaupun hasrat tk tercapai lepas alek keje..)
nk settle kan wedding kek dier agi..
bunga2 hantaran nk diubah..
bilik pengantin & xcessories to be ready..
fitting baju..

& many..many more..

thx 2 me..cos im e Big Fat Cat..juz kip quiet watching her doin her stufz..
i make a point not to interrupt her with her werk..

so i can sleep & eat as long as i can...isnt it nice...

niwae guys, juz a little reminder..

PLEASE WASH UR HANDS AFTER SNEEZING/COUGHING OK..

if u r not well, go & see dr..

dun kip ur illness..or u hv 2 wear 'glamour' mask juz like my kakak..

she's getting suffocated wearing dat thruout 8hrs & she doesnt want any 1 of u

to xperience watz she's been thru..

lucky im a cat ..not swine...!!!

hahahaha...

*hangpa nie mmg tkleh harap lar Chitah..1 dunia kecoh psl hang..

hang dok makan angin tepi pantai no...
mmg dasar SWINE betui lar....

2009-04-18T21:30:00.002+08:00

wif most of my wedding stuffz are almost done, im more relieved now..as in i dun hav 2 figure/stres abt major tings...wif the help of my relatives & family, im more relaxed now as compared as laz few months...im more xcited & anxious now when 42 more days (as my colleagues countdown for me evryday!), i wil b getting married to sum1 i luv most,

Mr Mok...!!!

(Yeah...!!!!)

when u r getting married & wanting 2 share ur lyfe wif sum1 u luv most, u wil fil veri blessed esp when dat guy is sum1 u known for ages...count me lucky or my fate, ive been wanting & dreaming the two of us making our relationship more further----marriage..

since we were teenagers (anak A.B.U!), berangan lar konon nk kawin same2...

tapi takut nk fikir byk2..

cos we both tot, itz not gd to tink abt it as yet..

takut tk kesampaian niat tu...

Alhamdulliah, maybe itz e tolerant & sincerity datz makes us together..

i didnt xpect the guy i 'hated' most during school days wil finally be my lawfully husband..

tular sape suro benci..hah kan jadi suami ku nanti..

nk dgr crita...??

no lar..My Mr Mok nie dulu step Mr Hunk, Mr Sportman,

Mr Casanova, Mr Macho etc..

so as a nice girl-nxt-door (cebah!), i dun prefer his outlook..

tapi tular, dun judge a book by itz cover..

he's a nice guy actuali..

niwae we starts our luv story by saying "EHk??"..

(delar kisah dongeng yg panjang giler..)

cume tk sangke, dlm hati abg nk kawin dgn aku bile tyme

ternampak ku tungu bas pat bustop..!!

dat tyme baru Sec 1!!! konon crush lar tu...

hahaha..pecah perut ku dgr abg critakan..

tular die blang, jgn ingat tkde org prasan me..

wateva lar yer..! (kecik2 dh gatal..) Hhahahaha..

But Thank Allah i found him..

I was lost without him

My every wish and every dream

Somehow became reality

When he brought the sunlight

Completed my whole life

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude..

2009-04-01T13:11:00.003+08:00

pagi nie abg uat ku terkejut jek..

ade kul 12.30am,dier msg..

"im goin out..."

i realised he msg me @ abt 5am..

so when i msg him, he didnt reply..

abt 6.55am,he called me (which he seldom wakes early..)

juz asking me whether im oreadi awake..

again i asked him (dgn penoh prasaan & kobar2..)

where he did he go..

dgn rase "bersalah & slambe", abg replied " nantilar org blang dier.."

tk ke rase boring & fed up ku pagi2 buta..

so after dat..7.45am,he msg me..

"u wannna know where i go yestrday??"

ku pon jwb.."where??"(marah nie..)

dgn bangganyer Mr Mohamad Hayrie replied:

"PULAU BANTAL...HAHAHAHA..APRIL FOOL!!!"

kONg AjAQ betui!!!

kene aku pagi2...i was laughing lyke a hyena on my way 2 work..

nasib tkde org..kalo tk paisey seh..

so today itz my official date to get diet together wif my Mok..

hahaha..lyke real..(i noe..)

niwae smlm kite due gi IMM..

nak check out wedding bands..

cari punyer cari, banyak yg mahal..

sampailar ku gi TAKA jewellery..

dh berkenan dis couple rings, skali

abg tanyer ku satu soalan jek..

"dear, itz white gold..org leh pakai white gold??"

masyaAllah, ana tk perasan ante tk bule pakai itu cincin emas..

i totalli forget abt him!

seriously, kite wanita nie kalo dh nampak DIAMOND...

paham2 jelah ye..kalo diamond dpan mate,

sape pat sblah pon tk pandang..

so again kite venture lain kedai pon same..

itz great hunting the stufz together..

hah..dari situ baru nampak betape cerewetnye, fed upnye, hepinye etc..

2009-03-06T19:18:00.002+08:00

hey..hey..hey...

im..baaaaaccckkkk!!!!

letz count down everybodi..

i've got 2mths 10days ( my colleagues countdown 4 me!!!) to go til i wil b "Mrs Hayrie"!!!

cool huh...

ya..itz a nice feeling to called as "mrs" sum1..

niwae itz goin to be another long journey rite after im married..

stil not sure watz in store for me..

these few wks had been sucks 4 e both of us..

mcm2 dugaan..

itz true, when u r engaged alot of tings do hapen beyond our control..

makan hati, bingit, cekik darah!! (datz how we fil..)

due2 nak mnang, due2 rase btol..

kalo ditegor, ngamok tk trima..

hapens tymes where both of us shouted at each other!!

we juz dun care wat e heck e true prob was but to vent anger at each other instead..

sedih sgt..til one point of tyme i did asked him if he has stopped loving me??

but..

we did hav fun planning for our big project..WEDDING!!

esp me..die ikotkan aje...hahaha...

of coz..guys dun hav e concept of planning esp when it comes to big stuffz..

they prefer to do sumting useful rather having to walk 1 whole day juz to find berkat eg.!!

so when i told him to do dis, dat..die ar2 kan jek..

he told itz our wedding & i hv e right to dcide wat i want..

but of coz subject to his agreements..

til to date, im stil wondering when we can settle down peacefully wifout having those

grudges..hmmmph!!

i suddenly remind of Neyo song :MAD..

dis song is so close to wat im having nw..

itz lyke how a couple shouting at each other wifout any reasons wat they r

fighting for... mcm lepas geram tu lar..sampai mlm nk tdo pon tk leh tdo..

niwae i juz hope tings got well wif me & Mok soon..

makin nk dekat majlis nyer, mcm2 sey kite due nie..naughty bangat!!!

She's starin' at me

I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'

Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin'

just turns into screamin'

And now it's I'm yellin' over her,

she yellin' over me

All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?

That we don't even remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting forNothin',

crying forNothing, whoa

But we won't let it go for

Nothing, no not for

Nothing, this should be

Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain

But baby, can we make up now?'

Cause I can't sleep through the pain

Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

Oh no no no

And it gets me upset

Girl when you're constantly accusing

Askin' questions like you already know

We're fighting this war

Baby when both of us are losing

This ain't the way that love is supposed to go

Whoa, what happened to workin' it out?

We've fall into this place

Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down

So what the hell do we do now?

It's all for

Nothing, fighting for

Nothing, crying for

Nothing, whoa

But we won't let it go for

Nothing, no not for

Nothing, this should be

Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect

Perfect, perfect, oh oh

And just how good it's gonna be

We can fuss and we can fight

Long as everything's all right between us

Before we go to sleep

Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

2009-02-17T20:18:00.005+08:00

yup..im in cloud nine nw baby..guess wat? he sent me a nice sms wif lyric parts frm song: Gurauan Berkasih..

ya..ya..i noe..i dun go for all those jiwa-jiwang songs

but hey..i fell in luv wif dis song ever since yestrday..

cn u belive it??!

i was lyke...am i fallen in luv again or wat??

niwae enjoy e lyrics dere k..

for those who r in luv & stil searching for luv,

dis song goes 2 u too..

as for me, i hv found my Mok & dats e only ting i cn appreciate for..

Usik mengusik, semakin lama menjadi rindu

Hati merindu, asyik merindu

Tersentuh rasa, tidak terduga timbullah sayang

Andai tak jumpa, menjadi dendam

Gurau gurauan masih terasa dalam bayangan

Setiap detik ingin bersama memadu kasih

Apakah hati dah gila bayang

Merindu kasih, darimu sayang

Andai ketara rajuk dihati

Jangan sampai merosak cinta

Andai payah merawat rindu

Hadirlah hadirlah sayang

Rindu dendam bisa terubat

Andai sudah bertentang mata

Pasti kasih berpadu

Terlerai rindu di hati

Indah dirasa

Waktu berkasih

Kita saling merayu

Merindu di angin lalu

Ingin ku sentuh hatimu sayang dalam rinduku

Moga kau tahu hebatnya cinta di hati ini

Sekian lama, memendam cinta

Payah ku rasa menyeksa jiwa

Gelora cinta mengkhayal rasa dalam angan ku

Setiap waktu hanya namamu mekar di kalbu

Sayang menyayang ceria rasa

Antara kita tersimpul kasih

here's a song frm me 2 my Mok..a nice soothing song frm Anuar Zain: Im e Lucky One..

ade meaning tau lagu nie..

Ku persembahkan satu cita ku..

Setulus hati hanyalah untukmu dan

ku lakukan semampu aku tuk menyayangimu

hingga kau merasa jadi pujaan ku

meski bercinta kadang tak indah

tapi tuk buktikan kau yg terindah

dan kupastikan..

i'm the lucky one..

nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya...

jiwaku ini yg tak tersentuh

kini terasa sejak bersamamu

berikan hangat hingga

ku tak mampu berjauh darimu

kerna kau yg bisa buatku bahagia

meski bercinta kadang tak indah

tapi tuk buktikan kau yg terindah

dan ku pastikan

i'm the lucky one

nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

caramu membuatku tak berdaya

hatiku pun ribut terjaga

kau ubah hidupku ini jadi sempurna

meski bercinta kadang tak indah

tp tuk buktikan kau yg terindah

dan ku pastikan i'm the lucky one

nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

p/s: cant wait 4 him 2 call me tonite.. :o)

2009-02-15T15:10:00.002+08:00

Aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu

Aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu

Aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu

Akulah bintang yang hilang ditelan kegelapan

Selalu itu yang kau ucapkan padaku
Sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap

Aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah

Menahan setiap amarah
Aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu

Akulah bintang yang hilang ditelan kegelapan

Sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap

Aku hanya bisa mencoba bersabar

Ku yakin kau kan berubah

frm: Kekasih Yg tK Dianggap

-Pinkan Mambo

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

'Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it's broken

So they'd think that

I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first

And make the rules as I go

'Cause I know that she'd be faithful

Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

But you're just a boy

You don't understand

And you don't understand, oh

How it feels to love a girl

Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her

You don't care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

'Cause you're taking her for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy..

frm: If I were a Boy

-Beyonce

2009-02-09T12:34:00.002+08:00

he's away...

for 3wks or so...

away frm me..dat is..

i dunno..

when he's near, i dun reali take note dat he's actuali dere for me..

nw dat he's far, im kinda miss him alot..

though i used to joke dat i wun fil any diffrent when he's not ard,

dat i wil juz act as normal; go out wif family, do my own stufz etc..

but now itz difrent..

barely half a day he leaves, here i m in my office..miserably missing him..

yes..call me nuts!

of coz ok..

everyting i do, i do it for him..

he always make a point to be wif me even hw mad im wif him or vice versa..

ooohhh nver mind, i juz hope dat i cn wif my mok again...

2009-02-01T17:13:00.018+08:00

went 2 east coast park for a nice family gathering laz CNY..

CUTI 4 HARI!!!! (amek ko!)

so frm Sunday-Monday--------wif Dear's family & Wak Ibah & Cik Yan's family..

Mon nite- Tues Afternn--------wif Ibu Ben's & my family xcept Angah & Aki..

so u cn see hw tired i cn be..tapi bestlar..biler agi nk hang out mcm nie..

camping,eating, fototaking, biking & swimming( tu pon kene campak pat laut!!!) &

suntanning under e HOT sun..(although itz raining!)

enjoy2 lar ku skg.. agi 4 bulan ku nk jadi isteri org..

dh tkleh terkinje-kinje mcm monyet mkn belacan..

tyme lepak dlm tent...

hey check out dis "mondok"!!!nmpk kepale aje!! hahahaha...sori jgn marah!

bukan main posing2...

see,hear,speak & smell no evil....if u noe wat i mean..

main masak2 dgn Aunt Huda yg "baik hati & tidak sombong!!!"

my cutie -pie hunny bunch...!

Haiii..mkn oren pon nk amek gambar....??

2009-01-10T19:04:00.019+08:00

itz has been a swit lunch 4 me today..
well, i met my bestie, Syidah after werk juz nw..
kekek ar coz itz my 1st tyme after she became "MRS AZLAN!!"
so mase jumpe tu, step mane muke fierce je cik kak..
dari jauh muke selambe,bukan main...
tapi bile part nk salam, startlar giler kite..
She was lyke.."SAFAAAAA!!!", & i am lyke "SYIDAHHHH!!"
" RINDUNYERRR DGN KO!!!"

then we sat @ Bukit Batok MacDonalds.. (ingat nk gi LOT1 tapi kesian member bawak albums berat...)

so startlar kite punyer story...
she showed me her wedding albums..her pre & post wedding stories..
itz gd to hear coz she got e experience & advice me not to splurge so much..
yang penting majlis selamat..

she looks stunning on dat day...cool huh??

alot of stories i got 2 hear frm her..

hepi & sad..

but as a true fren of hers, i juz advice 4 e best..

i shared wif her abt my preparations..

wat dis future bride is facing wif her wedding world..

we did feel touched though coz we r both hepi 4 each other..

she is my childhood fren & til now..we r stil close as sisters..

i dunno mayb coz she has e same tinking/personality as me..

we juz clicked! (we stil hv dis childish behaviour in us!)
guess wat, Syidah pon tk pandai naik basikal mcm aku..!!!

teringat bile dulu2 kalo tyme skola, byk secretz kite share same2..

kalo gi dating pon, ku jadi e matchmaking cupid..

hahahhaaa..
so enuf said..after e boredom came soon after we chit- chatted,
so wat we did to release stres?? we went to arcade...& took pictures!!!

initially nk gi ladies pat Westmall,tapi tk tk tau mcmane leh end up naik atas sane..ish ish..

check dis out!!

e mentelz r back!!

biler kiter amek gambar nie..nasib baik blocking dgn wall pat belakang nie..kalo tk,free show sey.. kwahahahahha!! suke??

& not forgetting my darling mok..thx 2 him coz dia izinkan ku kuar dgn Syidah..

kalo tk mintak izin......nanti kene pancung kepale..jgn main2!!

2008-12-29T20:10:00.004+08:00

when itz time for hepiness, i wil b e 1st person on earth 2 b hepi..

2008 has been a sweet yet meaningful year for me..

one event after another makes me realize how

blessed i am 2 have such gd times

bonding wif families & frens...

laz Sat, itz was Sikin's engagement..

it was kinda of funny coz

i didnt xpect her to get engaged dat soon..

futhermore she is VERY SHY towards guys...

but it was an arranged plan by my aunt & her fren..

tular ye,dh jodoh..

im hepi for her..

Just now @ werk, we had dis New Year Eve Party..

Fun...

makan-makan-makan!!!

yes, i cant resist e pizzas & sweet delicacies frm Delifrance..

veri tempting oiii..

baru ingat nk turunkn 1kg, pakai nmpk dh naik ler sekilo!!

aduhh!!

ok..e best now is:

WHAT IS MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION??

perhaps:

1) SAVE SAVE,SAVE $$$$$$$$

-huh nie penting beb..kalo tkde $$$$, jgn harap nk "tawin"

(iylia's version of saying Kawin!)

2) lose weight??

-hahaha..nie agi..uat aku strez jek..i dun wish 2 b a SARUNG NANGKE u noe!!

makkkkkk!!!!

3) add more affections & luv 2 my dear..

-kesian lar hai..mcm terbiar gitu abg mok ku..

ok lar ye, sampai sini jek..nanti byk2 nanti tk tercapai pulak..

makin terkapai-kapai adelar..

to my Mok:

camat berpancing..here i m @ hm on New Year Eve watching TV..

which is more great..

eating junkies...

(yeah..yeah..i noe..nk lose weightlar sgt??!!)

well all bcos i didnt get 2 folow my family 2 Jurong Point..

semangat mak ayah aku dh beli baju2 utk budak2 kendarat

utk sanding ku nanti...

Bagosss...at least they ease my load abit..

2009..

hopefuli it wil b a nice smooth sailing year for me..

insyallah..amin..

2008-11-19T12:22:00.007+08:00

A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF U FOR CELEBRATING

MY BDAY WIF ME!!!

neva did i least xpected dat somehow they wud

spend their time , effort & money 2 make a surprise juz 4 me...

neva did i xpected to receive gifts frm dem too..

neva did i xpected dat they care 4 me so much dat they dun mind

being dere juz 2 make me hepi...

neva in my mind tinking abt celebrating my laz 'single' year dis way..hehehehe!!

itz fun though, having pple 2 'bohong sunat' at me..

making lotsa of funny reasons which i NEVA tot weird of..

but havin said dat, im reali touched wif wat my Dear told me on the way 2 e chalet..

"sori ayg, dis yr abg tk dpt belikan pape..bla bla bla..tapi tkpe nanti kite gi mkn John Cheese

k??"..

im so hepi dgr nk mkn punyer psl..itz orite ar kalo tkde kek pon..

i dun mind..yg penting tots dat countz..

rupe-rupenyer...de surprise di sebalik chalet... :o)

2008-11-14T20:34:00.022+08:00

itz been more than a month since i updated my bloggie ya..
M.A.L.A.S sgt..
eversince my nuisance computer went on strike,
i cant do aniting but wait 'patiently'
it wil get betta soon..
niwae, gotta 2 update a few xciting moments during e past fews wks..

1. way back on 9th-12th Oct 2008
Abg Ben & Pok Shanty Wedding @ Cibinong Bogor,Indonesia

itz my first time taking an airplane 2 sumwhere 'far' xcept Malaysia!! (i noe, lyke duh!)

i swear itz one of my amazing moments coz im lyke a gayat queen but action cool!
hahaha...

(muke crampie abis!!)

aniwae enuf said, it was a fun & enjoyable trip though..
gotz lotsa shopping..
dh mcm mbak2, tante2,ibu2..shopping sakan...
But e wedding was SUPER GRAND!
i lyke it soooo much...(esp e dias)
it was cool wif all those decorated fresh flowers & waterfall thingy..

food was alrite..entertainment was tip-top esp kak yati & e gang
performed atas stage..!! kelakar 2 e max punyer..goyang dombret abis!!
xcept for e xtreme 2 max DANGDUT singers!! (but i lyke the music though)

Mentel, YUCKS BIG TIME LADIES!!
sawer yok!!!!! (arghhhh...tk leh angkat!!)

(such a lovely couple..)

2. Fast-Forward to 9th Nov 2008
The GlassHouse @ Labrador Park

Help Cik Ina wif her Chinese bestfren's wedding decoration..
nice place to start wif..
i fallllllllllll (bukan jatoh k) but in luv wif e scenery..
nice ambience & atmosphere 2 hav ur wedding held there..
Romantic place lar..(berangan lar pulak..)

tapi kalo malam lagi jambu..wif e candles etc..
Penat mmg penat..ape tak dari tghari sampai kul 6pm tk abis2..
tapi itz a gd xperience 4 both my 2 swit sizterz (Ain & Huda)..
coz y?? yg satu nk jadi wedding planner..agi satu dulu nk jadi event planner!!

haha,sajaklar korang!!

( kiter cantik ke tempat dier..hahaha..kiter dua dh jadi minah Bunge daa..)

( dis two neva fail 2 make me smile on dat day... )

3. Celebrating Nov Babies @ Clinic G on 13th Nov 2008

i celebrated a small but meaningful birthday party wif my colleagues @ werk..
actualy it was kinda of surprise party of e 5 of us..
didnt xpext dem 2 buy a cake & orders food 4 us..

so swit of dem..
my Sister (supervisor) personally called me up when i was deployed 2 other clinic..

ingatkan nk marah ke ape?rupenyer, jeng jeng jeng...SURPRISE..
so today i gave dem a cute & swit treatz for dem..
hepinyer dorang mcm budak2 sey..padehal dh tue!!
hahaha..

(KECOH lar sey kiter...!!!Leong,Waheeda, Me, Aunt Lily & Molzi )

( 1,2 3, Cut!!..behind is Kak Lyn..Org kuat planning for e food..!)

indeed e food was delicious esp e kueh kole & popiah!!! Wow!!

(Heng,Wendy,Nach,Minal,Dayana & Rekha)

(Aishah-e quiet,Waheeda-e relax, Grace-e kecoh & mie- e .....naughty..hehehehe)

(Sister Pushpa, Kak Afidah, Waheeda & Santha)

okie..im goin 2 sleep now..haiz sok keje ler...

ZzzzzZzzZZz...

2008-10-08T13:49:00.004+08:00

camat hari Raye 2 all...

Pade mereke yg dh byk uat salah tu, cepat2 lar mintak ampun..

Pade mereke yg byk kasi duit raye, smoge cepat2 lar Allah beri Rezki agi pat korg..

Pade mereke yg DAPAT duit raye tu, jgn malu, jgn segan.. Cepat2 lar ''derma'' pade yg tgh tulis blog nie...

hehehehe...

ok.. not much update here..juz a normal Raye for me...tiap2 tahun same jek..gi umah sdare2.. cume dis yr tk naik bas...as in chartered bus... ( ala-ala mcm nk gi rombongan!!!)

niwae let me hibernate 4 awhile frm blogging for few days..nk merantau jauh nie...

so take care evrybadi... Adios!!

2008-09-24T12:13:00.003+08:00

ok...raya is coming in less den a week nw..

stil havent done much preparations as yet..

dis yr wil b a veri sederhane raye 4 me..

but i cant wait 4 nxt Raye..nxt yr i'll tell u y... :0)

niwae now im havin 1st break @ werk now..Puase ape..so Lepaklar pat dlm bilik..

stil tinking wat is e BEST bday prezzie 4 my Dearest Mok...

wat he wants eh??

haiz...

laz nite we talked on e phone..as in REALLYYY TALK!!

after quite sumtymes...Ish Ish...

coz im e one havin 2 sleep early & we cant talked lyke usual on e phone..

itz amazing hw u cud fil...havin 2 talk 2 ur syg aftr quite awhile..

although we meet almost evryday (ape tk...dier asyik fetch alek jek..)

u wil finally gotta 2 noe datz itz actualy nice 2 have sum1 who misses u everyday..

but itz sad cos Dear told me hw we 'drifted apart' after engagemnt...

i admit we used 2 b close laz tyme..yelar pape semue bilang tu, ini...

skg nk bebual pon mcm alahai.....nk ckp tknk eh...

so nw i pledge..

I, Safarina, will always:

Open my eyes big2 @ nite (jgn nk tdo dulu,muz wait 4 him.. zzzzZZZZZZZZZ)
Stretch my Ears wider (muz listen 2 wait he says..)
Talk 2 him no matter wat hapen...dun kip secrets... (gurls wil b gurls..)

ok.....stil tinkin wat 2 buy 4 him...

maklumlar sok 'dragon' sambut bday....hehehehe...

2008-09-07T17:25:00.002+08:00

kalo lar Emang leh bebual, mesti dier tanyer:

"nape kak?? asal sedih2 nie??"

nie psl tk leh bual lar, kucing ku nie tenung je tgk ku alek!!

im so upset..

veri..

im not selfish u noe..

..::________________________________________________________::..

You know the story

You read the books

Boy meets girl

Then they fall forever in love

But I know better

So here goes a tale

Of the realest of the real

Listen...

Now once upon a time in a small world

It was everything that I dreamed of

He was my gem and I was his pearl

Nothing could come between us

A prince charming to call my own

Until the day that he broke my heart

And left me wonderin all alone

Pickin my mind and soul apart

Twinkle twinkle little star

Why do my dreams seem so far

Up above the world so high

Won't somebody tell me why

Can you help me out

Can you tell me what love is all about

Cause I never known it for myself

That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more

..::_______________________________________________________::..

2008-08-31T14:09:00.007+08:00

I hav all e BIG P's rite nw people..!

P-enat

P-ening

P-ressure

P-anicky

P-engantin blues!!!!

seriously, im so dunno-wat-2-do-4-my life- syndrome!!!

Yestrday e mak andam came 2 my house 4 a portfolio thingy...

& 4 ur own info, this was arranged by my mom, mind u..

she went 2 Bukit Timah e other day, browsing thru all e wedding stufz 4 my siz & me wif my auntz..

so happened dis mak andam was dere & all of dem start chit-chatting abt e wedding preparationz..

dh alek,mak pon enjoy2 lar blang ku wat hapen at e 'outing'...

ku pon iyakan je... coz im havin so much of stomach pain...

suddenly e day after, she told me dat e mak andam wil

b coming 2 our house!!!

huh!!!

helo!! dis mak andam is not sum kind of hu-ha bawah blk punyer ok!

im gettin more tensed cos i wil b so SEGAN, konfirm & FULL-STOP!

4 wat i understand she had done alot of corporate/projects 4 BIG names..

& ape class member nk datang umah kiter, rite or not?

when she came, she is indeed a down-2 earth person..

nothin of e ya-ya papaya sort..

she showed me her portfolio..nice werk indeed..

but yalar, i cant confirm it now..she noes it too..

she advice me 2 survey all e wedding bridal available in town..

coz she told me she 1 me 2 b satisfied 2 wat i choose...

Angah siang2 dah ckp taknak coz die dhde preference lain...

niwae i lyke her make-up etc..

but 1 regret, she takes in only 1 pengantin

each wk.. so kalo ku tk cepat2, melepas..

ishhh...of coz i 1 2 look difrent on dat day..

as in 'look sweet yet beautiful-elegant' at e same tyme..

tapi tular masalah nyer...Ongkosnyer..takot budget lari beb!!!

as for dis guy, i admit i 'leave' him alone all e tyme..

im kinda of confused wif my own self ...

i dun blame him if he wanna blame me for absolutely

everyting or aniting i do..

hmmph..enuf said..

itz my fault aniwae...kesian mok..

2008-08-13T20:11:00.009+08:00

hehe...i had a gd laugh reading Huda's blog again juz now..

she reali brought me back 2 memori lane...

zaman kanak2!!

tyme kiter adek-bradek alek ngaji, kiter ramai2 pekik pat tingkap dapor,

"MAK!! NK DUIT!! NK BLI BIBI!!!"

(Bibi tu name kropok paket kecik yg colour oren tu... Sedap!!)

nanti makcik nie taular timing2 anak2nyer nk pekik..

kadang2 dh standby bungkus duit coins dlm plastik beg siap masok kan sepit baju skali!!

konon nak kasi berat..

den plastik tu dh mcm Parachute dari tingkat 7 mak campak!!

hahahaha...

But i hav 2 tell u, even though dat tyme dere's only 3 gurls in e family,

tapi masyaAllah, nakalnyer kiter kalahkan anak lelaki!!

my dad was a very hot-tempered guy dat tyme..

terok kiter kene 'kurung' dalam stor,

kene 'ketok-ketampi' byk kali (esp kalo times table salah jawab!!) , rotan,

sampai kene halau dari umah pon ader..(tyme tu Pri 1!, ingat agi..sedih)

Rabak tk..??byk2, ku yg paling naughty,very!!

nw i noe hw hard lyfe is if our kids dun listen 2 us...ish iksh.,ape nak jadi??

niwae come back 2 real life,

juz nw i had dis Ortho Party in conjuction wif Nurses Day..

so ate alot of food..sedap jugak makanan dier..

pastu take a tour ard e new clinic..nice concept..

pas makan, biase gak...amek Gambar!!!! sNap, SnaP!

my Sister served e food for us...delicious food frm Hajah Amnah Catering..Promote Sey!!

wif Letchumy..posing pat krusi empuk..

wif Mages,Letch & Mama Leong...coz she's my big mama in da clinic!! ahahaha!

presenting e Mentelz...!! dh kenyang, posing pat counter...

V & Nurul were so sporting...!!

me wif P Clinic stafz...so nice of dem.. tk sangke korang same giler dgn ku jugak!!

p/s: can't wait 4 e nxt BBQ gathering wif my Sec school geng...!!

2008-07-30T20:01:00.009+08:00

whoAAAaaa!

im so full rite now...

as in so damn Kenyang!!!

oh yeah, today i ate alot of pizzas & chicken wings and cakes...!!

well actuali todae was e laz day of Kak Nelly aka Nelly Potato...

she wil b leavin us 2 work at Mount Elizabeth..

yup,im actuali quite shocked abt e news but after i asked her,

den she said 'Yelar dik, akak nk brenti...bla bla bla...'

hmm..oklar mayb she wants a change in directions.....

aftr more than 10years here...

so we bought her some Ikea vouchers & well-wisher card...

everyone wrote down more or less e same gd wishes such as:

1) 'good luck & best wishes 2 u'..

2) 'nice knowing u'...

3) 'we will miss you'

4) 'dun 4get me' etc....

But guess wat i wrote on e card???? Jeng Jeng Jeng...!!!

To Kak Nelly,

Dun wori kak, even when u r not here animore...

I wil stil invite u 2 my wedding!!!!!! Hahahahaha!!!!

nice knowing you :0)

cool or wat..???!! semue kecoh2 nk sedih2 mcm e world is ending..

chill ar...as if org tu nk gi luar negeri...iskh, iskh..

here's pics wif Kak Nelly while otherz r bz working & eating!!!

im gettin more tensed, strez & tired day by day...

having 2 precept new staffs in my clinic every single day is reali not my forte..

bukan aksyen ke ape ar..

i dun mind teaching & i luv 2 'xpand' my knowledge 2 dem...

TAPI kalo dh diajar pon makin tk tau pastu bodoh sombong kn mcm Siak..!!

bile ditanye: 'ya ok i noe...'

disuruh uat: 'eh how u do it juz nw??'..

i hv alot of stufz 2 do...mane dgn Dr..patientz..pastu nk lyn si selenge2 nie...Adoi....

suro assist kjap, "eh i scared ar...wat if e Dr wantz injection??''

helo!!! dun xpect me 2 teach u all back 2 square one???

dh dikasi tau ape nk bagi, mcmane nk uat, siap uat demo agi...

so??wat more u 1??

at laz i gave up...i told her, "nvr mind itz ok...u juz stand here k...i do all e werk.."

sampai member terase agaknyer aku boring..teros tolong pape yg patot....

Aduhhhh...byk2 lar bersabar maya...nie semue COBAAN!!!

2008-07-23T20:36:00.011+08:00

hey baby!!! i'm Back!!!

yes..after so many months ( lamernyer??), i've been 'locking' myself...

so finally i've got e chance 2 update...

well, nothing though..juz kip bz wif myself..

yup, it cn b so strezful & hectic coz tyme flies so fast..

e min i woke up, itz a brand new day..

actuali i got a chance 2day coz i had 2 days MC.. (YEAH BABY YEAH!!)

dis is all bcoz of my swollen neck....yup actuali i've got lymph nodes infections..

datz y i got these flu & fever all over me dis past few wks...

tapi nk act terror, tetap gi keje..

My best childhood fren, Syidah is getting married soon...8/8/08!!!

wat a date..date tk nk kalah...

she passed me her invitation kad soon after she finished her gym class & called me up 2 wait downstairs..

ku ingat pe bende lar budak nie nk.. rupenyer nk antar kad 'saman'...

but 2 bad..i was abt 2 hugged her, but suddenly we remembered she was sweating!!!!

eeeeewwwww..... ehehehhee!!

mak juz came frm KL attending my cuzzen bro's wedding..his wedding was lyke e

grandest among e rest...so kinda mcm datuk2-datin2 style...hahaha so wat!! niwae

came to noe frm mak dat dis August & Dec wil be another engagemnt eventz 4 my

mom's side... both my kakak2 sepupu r getting engaged respectively...wow!!! 2008

was indeed a wedding -engagemnt- sunat & family gathering event 4 my

family....SuperLy gd news!!! :0)

guess wat my mom said," Nielah kak..semue dh jangkit dgn ko...ko start, semue

start...semue dpt berkat...!!"...

yeah so EVERYBODY involved, say THANKS 2 me!!

2008-05-22T21:35:00.014+08:00

well im so bored rite nw..

nothin 2 do..

den i suddenly tot of creating a story...

about a gurl named Iylia...

( a Story i've created 2 let myself destrez!!! Arghhh!!!)

laz wk pat East Coast, kite adek bradek dh boring gilernyer!!

kiter pon lepak2 lar naik basikal--round2 satu beach tu..

dh penat kiter pon lepak lar pat Bedok Jetty..

posing2, amek gambar, Hayrie lak tgk org pancing..

yg kiter nie adek bradek dh kecoh mcm ape..

petik2 gambar..

we r so xcited dat we actuali 4got abt IYLIA!!

die dh relax 1 corner...kesian sey....

dlm hati die...'Ohhhh,korg syok2 amek gambar, beh ku tkya ar??!'...

juz luk at e pics below on how we siblings tease her 4 bein a EMO Kiddo!!!

part nie muke dh 'slack'...

tibe2 dtglar si kepo bertandang...

Iylia lak diam je...tgh strez lar tu..HAHaHa!!

Kite pon ape agi join skaki lar...

kite dh lepak2 ketawe tapi si kecik nie maintain je...

so moral of e story...

" Jgn tinggalkn budak2 nie sorg2...

dorg pon nk join in e fun beb!!!

kalo dibiarkan, takot2 depression tk dpt amek gambar!!!!'...

terkilan member..

so atlaz after bein 'tortured' by us,we took pics of her lar...kesian budak nie..

luk hw hepi she was...

Iylia,iylia...

2008-05-19T13:09:00.009+08:00

u all gotta watch Ayat-Ayat Cinta..

itz so damn touching & i cried...!!

Dear was lyke, "abeh emo??nangis??..."

Guys!!! mane korang tau part2 pedih2 nie..

gua nie sensitif lar bro...

gua tkleh tgk crite2 gini..mcm hindustan!!

niwae itz such a gd example how we as Islam shld face challenges..

though we r down & condemn wif watever sort probs & reasons He send us,

nevertheless wif determination & patience,

we wil stil win..

(wahhhhh...look who's talking!!!)

Niwae im quite jealous if i were Aisha (e character in e movie)..

mestilar suami aku share2 dgn org lain...

i noe itz goin 2 b a HUGE SACRIFICE if i were in dat position..

Only a strong women might b able 2 do dat..

i dun even noe if i hv dat strength...SERIOUSLY!!

But on e other hand, how wil i react if i am Maria/Noura??

My secret crush got married 2 e other women wifout me noeing...!!!

mak ai..strez!!

yup i noe how it fils if sum1 we luv suddenly left us 4 sum1 else...

ish..ish...Ngamok sey!!

well..watch e movie & judge urself...

im certain u all gotta luv e movie...

2008-05-18T14:36:00.009+08:00

celebrated Mother's Day at ECP laz wkend...

me wif 'ibu mertuaku' & Ain...

They r sooo Hepi receiving e gifts..Uke??

2008-05-18T14:23:00.008+08:00

itz been a while since i laz updated..

dere's been so many tings happening..

sooo many dat im totalli drained & tired..

yup..yup..im not complaining..

but kinda bored...

lyfe cn b so beautiful at 1 tyme,

but e nxt min, itz nt..

mayb itz a test 2 c whether im strong enuf 2 face

these challenges..

but im glad & blessed..

when otherz see me smile & laughing..

only my Dear noes watz lies in myself..

reali..

2008-04-01T17:34:00.005+08:00

last Sunday was my engagemnt day wif Hayrie..

Alhamdulliah, evryting went veri well dat day..

im reali hepi bcos all my beloved ones were dere 2 celebrate dis joyous momentz wif me..

thx 2 my sistaz & kuzzen Jannah for all their hard werk..did e make up 4 me etc..

thx 2 all my uncles, aunties, big & small kuzzens, nieces & nephews 4 celebrating e joy wif me..siap rewang malam2 kopek bawang, kentang, potong cili etc..

niwae i didnt xpect my fwens 2 b dere too...

hujan2 laktu korang dtg..

thx Sri & Wan, Ira & Khai, Suzy, Nurun & Hazmi, Hany & Hardy,

Syidah & Lan, Rose & partner for coming..

I reali appreciate u guyz & gurlz alot..

2 my beloved Hayrie...we r one step closer 2 make our drims come true..

InsyaAllah...

2008-03-26T23:32:00.002+08:00

dayz had been soo hectic & strez...

wif werk & personal combined forces..!!

But wat im goin 2 do???

Take a deep breath..

breathe in..breathe out...

SenYum mau lebiH....

Sabar tu seParuh daRi Iman beb...!!!

2008-02-27T20:26:00.007+08:00

well,well..spent my wkend wif my family members at BB CSC Club..

oklar..fun jugak..

BBQ part was a bit boring coz we only hv 4 hrz 2 'panggang' e food!!

but thx 2 e uncles & dad for speeding up e process..

kalo kiter jage, harap je hangus...ayam hitam legam tapi lom masak!!

wah-Liau-wayy..hancur!

so me & my kuzzens were lyke, "ok,letz go 4 karaoke while waiting 2 go bowling"..

mak ai..masok je tempat karaoke die,mendak abis nyer..

tempat dier seram ar..(not my kind of place,u noe wat i mean..)

den biler tanyer pat 'brother' nie whether ade lagu melayu tak?

pastu member suro choose frm e screen..

guess wat?? lagu Indonesia lamer GILERNYER..

Kes mcm lagu wak kang- wak kang Indon nyer!!

dun xpect us 2 sing dat kind of song aite??

lainlar kalo lagu Krisdayanti ke etc..

nasib baik lom bayar..

ish ish..

so after we were done at e BBQ hut, all of us spent e rest of our tyme at e bowling alley..

absolutely fun..

mak2 tk pernah main bowling ----jakun but meriah

bapak2 ---- 1 org strike, yg lain pon xcited nk score..

youngsterz ----asal bola masok longkang, "mate tgk pompuan/lelaki eh????"

end of e session, i went ard 2 gif e bday boys & gurls their gifts...Uke dpat prezen?? :o)

so next destination, we went 2 West Coast Park..

went dere wif Bibik & Ibu Ben family only..

saje jek lepak ramai2 amek angin..

Dear as usual look out 4 pancing spot...

while i continue 2 BBQ again!!

tk kenyang2..

overall, itz fun..

esp cik amat family tibe2 ikut kiter dari blakang..

ckp tknk pegi..atlaz pat blakang lori je...

hehehehe..

hope 2 get 2gether wif dem again..

luv dem loads sey!!

kes dah boring gilernyer...i piggyback Huda!! ko tau tk brape Lengoh nyer kaki kakak??? kalo ringan tkpe... bluek!!

*more picz at my familykuhappening multiply*

2008-02-15T20:26:00.004+08:00

i dunno watz happening 2 me..

ive been having dis sharp pain on my chest & difficulty in breathing..

for quite sumtymes oreadi..

mayb im 2 stres/tired..

seriously tired..

itz ok..im tryin not 2 tink abt my 'sickness'..

cos e more i tink abt it, e more i suffer!!!

i want 2 lead a normal & hepi lyfe..

i dun1 pple 2 start woried sicko abt me..

so im tryin veri hard nt 2 let ani1 noes abt my health..

i dun1 2 b chop 'LEMBIK'..!!

coz 1 tyme i complained 2 my dear hw famished & restless i was,

he wil say, "dier nie tkleh keje kuat sey...tgk sape agi keje kuat??dier

keje pat air-con..org kene angkat barang,berat2..panas2...etc..bla bla.."

Tk berat ko kate???yelar...hanye tuhan jek tau keje ku mcmane..

wat else cn i say??argue??tk kuase...

well met up wif Habz..she's too no longer in ParkwayShenton..

She's got a job at SATA..

better job prospect..

gd 4 her...

Peixin left Shenton tooo...bakal2 nk jadi Insurance Agent wif GreatEastern..

hmmm...nmpknyer ku dh kuar,baru semue nk cabut..

kalo tk terpakse melangok pat sane..

kesian kiter2 yer...

lyfe..lyfe..

2008-02-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

i dunno hw 2 tell u abt my matters..

i dunno hw 2 clarify tings wif u abt us..

i dunno hw 2 make u understand abt my feelings..

i reali dunno hw..

im stuck sumwhere wif no end..

evryting u say, i hv 2 agree..

evryting u do, i hv 2 follow..

evryting u wish, i hv 2 grant..

but hw abt me??

hv u tot abt me??

when i told u abt my ambitions & dreams..

u 'destroys' me...

when i told u abt my likes & hepinez..

u 'upsets' me..

is it so DIFFICULT 2 understand a gurl's heart??

m i asking u alot dat u fil so reluctant 2 accept wat i nid??

im not e type of person who forgets her roots..

ive tried my veri best 2 b dere when u nid me..

ive tried my veri best 2 understand u..

ive tried my veri best 2 b hepi even it breakz me..

ive tried alot sayang..

2008-01-25T13:34:00.000+08:00

yestrday was my laz day..

so im havin a mixture of feelings...

2 b sad/hepi..

every1 asked y i shld leave?

esp my MRO fren,Aylien..

she is a Filipino..(she's e 1 wearing brown in e pic)..

she hugged me & said dun 4get her..

quite emo dat tyme..(cewah,cewah...)

so during lunch all of us were lyke sitting together-gether..

took pictures..

aftr giving them a small token,

Jenn sang me a 'sad Auld Lang Syne' but in Chinese version...

haiya dis AhLian hor reali make me double-sad liow!!

wif Aylien & Lily(my super-speed Supervisor)...si Cine nie kalo uat keje punyer laju..takya pakai rollerblade..ku rase die lari lagi laju dari rollerblade...hahahahaha!!! tapi ade je yg salah nanti...kecoh ar keje dgn die nie...

*gosh! i dunno wat hapen nxt 2 me starting Mon...hopefuli evryting goes fine.. InsyaAllah*

2008-01-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

itz goin 2 b my laz wk werking at Shenton nxt wk..

cos im goin back 2 Sgh soon..

i took alot of consideration b4 i resign frm Shenton..

ALOT im sayin here...

niwae i make a new fren...juz 1 fren..can u believe dat??

coz e rest r damn 'abnormal' colleagues i might say..

(my clinic only hv 5 of us..4 Chinese & me Malay!!! tk ke pathetic tu..

Boring 2 e max!!!)

So her name is Siti Habsah..She's frm Harbourfront branch..

she wil only come 2 my werkplace every Sat..

e best part is i can clique wif her since e 1st tyme we met..

KecoH lar sey...

e rest of e staffs tanyer whether we knew each other b4..

coz we r so close 2 each other...

hahaha..& we stayed at e same 'kampung' too..CCK!!!

So evrydy i wil go 2 werk wif her but get 2 werk 2gether on Sat only lor..

both of us r actualy fedup wif e management actuali..forget it..

i HATE 2 talk abt it..

niwae im glad coz atlis even though im nt goin 2 werk dere animore,

Siti too wun b staying dere 4 long..

she wil 'berambus' frm dere too..

our fate r almost e same..

when we were so strez wif our werk nw, our ex- company called us back..

Syukur alhamdulillah...

hopefuli our frenship wun laz once we r not werking 2gether-gether..

picz taken during 'lepaking' at our clinic..

konon nk amek gambar 'pemandangan' lar..

we kekek wif each other cos we were camwhoring mepek2 gilernyer..

(but i cant put dat on bloggie ya..)

til e staffs at e counter can heard us!!!

our supervisor were lyke,

"gurlz, wat r u doin?dating is it??!!"

hahaha...

watever lar ye...

2008-01-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

yay!!! itz my 6th annivrsry wif Mohamad Hayrie @ Mr Mok...

6 yrs of ups & downs...

ish2 alot...

frm e 1st tyme i knew him til now,

he stil e same type of guy..u noe y?

a) he is shy 2 order food..be it at hawker centre/restaurant/fastfood outlet..

b) he is a typical mat who dislyke veggie...Haiz..kalo nampk sayor jek,LEMAU!

c) kalo dier lambat,boleh...kalo kiter lambat,muke die jadik square...

d) alot 2 mention...endless...

so when i tink back during our courting days,reali funny...

i didnt xpect e guy i 'hate' e most could b e 1 i luv til nw...

die nie step macho..

manenyer 'hero'..

byk 'minah2' terpikat..

maklumlar sportman pe..

who cares??

i 'hate' him so much dat i PURPOSELY mixed a SUPERLY SOUR orange juice wif a mixture of ?? juice....amek ko sakit perot!!! kacau ku agi kan!! hahahahaha

*evil Laugh*

but i lyke e way when we started 2 noe each other...

i didnt realise dat sum1 lyke him is very sincere & serious 2wads relationshp..

he noes hw 2 treasure a girl's heart & take care of her wif luv...

although u all sees him veri 'cold' on e outside, he's actuali a nice caring guy who put others before self..

im hoping dat we wil stay thru thick/thin..

i wil continue 2 support him in any decision he makes..it muz b gd,of cos..

hepi annivery dear.. :0)

2008-01-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

great..
i read my horoscope for today..
it totalli tells e situation im having rite nw..

You have a right to be forceful or enthusiastic about what you are doing, whether it's pursuing a romantic interest or going for that new job position. Do not be afraid to let your bolder side come to the forefront. Sure, it might shock a few people, but it will also signify to everyone that you are not somebody who will let people walk all over them...

see??i noe itz juz coincidence but itz true lar beb...

2008-01-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

hepi 2008!!!!

may dis year b a wonderful & prosperous yr ahead...yeah!!!

us doin e 2-0-0-8...

lepaking while waiting 4 e firewerks...

hahaha..a snapshot of mak looking at e firewerkz...

p/s: i dunno watz install 4 me dis new yr..but i juz hope dat dis yr wil b a gd one 4 me.. ive dis feeling dat lotsa tings goin 2 hapen dis yr..i cn sense it..no mater wat it is,itz better b gd.. even hw bad tings goin 2 b,i m prepared....i always did...

2007-12-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

sumtymes e road im taking can b too winding & narrow..

sumtymes e lyfe dat i lead can b too complicated & hard..

sumtymes e luv dat i hav can b too harsh & sad..

sumtymes e mood dat i fil can b too stress or sickening..

but im content & prayed dat all these negatives r staying juz 4 a while..

juz 4 a tiny little while..cos they r here 2 make sure dat im strong enuf 2 face all e probs lyke an adult do..

2007-12-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

Baby I love you

You are my life

My happiest moments weren't complete

If you weren't by my side

You're my relation

In connection to the sun

With you next to me

There's no darkness

I can't overcome

You are my raindrop

I am the sea

With you and God, who's my sunlight

I bloom and grow so beautifully

Baby, I'm so proud

So proud to be your girl

You make the confusion

Go all away

From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you

You set me free

I can't do this thing

Called life without you here with me

Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you

I'll never leave

Just keep lovin' me

The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me

Love me for who I am

Cause years before I became who I am

Baby you were my man

I know it ain't easy

Easy loving me

I appreciate the love and dedication

From you to me

Later on in my destiny

I see myself having your child

I see myself being your wife

And I see my whole future in your eyes

Thought of all my love for you

sometimes make me wanna cry

Realize all my blessings

I'm grateful

To have you by my side

Every time I see your face

My heart smiles

Every time it feels so good

It hurts sometimes

Created in this world

To love and to hold

To feel

To breathe

To love you

p/s: yup i noe im veri e emo..suddenly tonite..but who cares, im in luv rite now..juz lyke im feeling for e past 5 yrs..i dunno y i fil dis way..cant wait for 16 jan 08..6 years to be..insyaallah..

2007-12-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

im missing all my gerlfrens!!! babes,where r u gerls??? been juz talking on e fon wif dem, askin how r they doin...well mayb im juz started 2 fil 'small', 'alone in my own world'...heard dat 1 of my fwen,Umahrani, is goin 4 surgery..?i dunno if itz true..

im not in my own self lately....seriously,ive no appetite 2 eat too..many events took place which hinders my daily lyfe..werk esp..so strez..maner nk uat registration,prescription, blood tests, ECGs,audiometry etc...& deres only 4 of us werking at e clinic!!! imagine tadi 1 of us on MC.. how rushing it is..!!!

im not complaining cos im used 2 hard werk..but im juz plain bored..ntah eh,new environment agaknyer...hmmmmm....

as for my luv lyfe, we r havin a nice tyme 2gether dis few days..my mok is nice & understanding 2wards me..he prepares 2 hear my 'nonsense & crap' (which he normaly refuse 2 hear everytyme!!)...mok mok... :o)

2007-11-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

getting drenched yesterday wif Ain behind e lori is making me sick now..but kinda funny cos we were happily enjoying e breeze & dere dis Mat Vespa -(tersengih2-senyum2 kambing-perasan..)

gliding thru his bike bside us..padehal kite tgh kutuk dier dat tyme,dier tk tau..hahahaha!

Suddenly,hujan rintik2 dh..

makin lebat lak tu..Ish2...

Ain & myself were lyke 'AHHH,HUJANNN!!!!'...

tk ke kalm kabut dgn kebaye, kite kene loncat (wif no gracefulness at all,i tell u..) kluar lori tu..at laz we were asked 2 wait at e nearest bustop b4 hayrie fetched us again..

come on beb,2 tymes we were 'sabo' by e rain & atlaz we hv 2 squeeze our 'cute' body in e front seat!!

imagine 6 pple squeezing e front!!yg malunyer, mak hayrie kene pangku aku yg BESAR BAGAI JOHAN nie...

lenguh kaki agaknyer..

Ain tk abis2 terantuk pat cermin!!

Hhahahahah..we r lyke sardine..

Itz fun 2 think back wat hapen yesterdy..

moral of e story: sediakan 'kadboard' sblum hujan..

esp when u r on a lori wif no shelter...Ingat..

2007-11-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

yup,i noe im turning 23 wif effect frm yestrday..geeee...

so yup : Happy belated birthday 2 me...lalalala.. :o)

aniwae i had a nice surprise frm everyone..

(fwens,family,relatives & Dear..)

dah tue bangke mcm nie pon ader surprise2 agi..ish ish..

datz not all, Dear's family pon blikan prezen which i totali dun xpect 2 get..segan nyer..Thx again to Ain & parentz 4 e perfume,makeup set & wallet...

Huda & Nasir for e Adidas Perfume Set..maceh!!!

Huda's fwen( Ain,Lina & Fai):also known as Bratz!!! too had been veri nice 2 give me a HUGE BDAY Card 4 me which they decorated themselves..alot of funny stuff inside..oppz Censored!! Bukan main puji korang makaroni goreng kakak ye...

all my swit frenz & cuzzenz who had sent bday wishes thru SMSes,emails,Frenster & Facebook..Thx alot..u gurlz & guyz r realy totful..gua caye same lu....:O)

2 my 1 & only Mok..'who sumtymes can be a pain in my arse,head, thighs,tummy, etc'; THX U SYG!!! U always noe how 2 surprise me wif all e plans u had..aniwae i luv e gold bracelet u gave me..i totali appreciate it & will take care of it reaaaalliii goooood...Hope 2 stay blissfully & hepily 2gether in e near future..i Lurvp u lar mok!! yeah!!

i was shocked dat my bday cake was actuali a burger!! lantak ko sampai kenyang..hahahaha..

An Evening at Shangri-La Hotel

2007-11-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

laz Sat..went 4 my freelance job..as usual..henna pe agi..dis tyme is at Shangri-La Hotel..

dgn tk biase & tk pernah jejak sane, guess wat, i was lost on my way dere..!!!

i was walking round & round e private estates & condos trying my best 2 catch sum1 along e way..

dere's dis stupid security at American Club which totali get on my nerves! He told me 2 walk straight & along the kerb juz turn left..i did..

& nw im stuck of nowhere!! Finally,after feeling exhausted & damn thirsty, ( mcm pat padang pasir lak.. *what e?*)

i saw a Merc cab at e side of road..dgn muke slambe & penat GILERNYER, ku pon tanyer driver tu..

Tapi punyerlar KURANG AJAR!!!

He doesnt even luk at me while im talking & told me 2 go straight ahead! wat kind of attitude sak!!! I juz walked off saying 'THANK U' sarcasticly..But after a few steps, sum1 honked e horn frm behind me..

lar hai..

actuali it was e taxi driver..he told me to come inside e cab & he wil bring me dere..he was on his way nearer to e hotel im goin..

Alhamdulilah..

at laz i was inside e cab..it was quite a long distance i guess if i continued walking..so gurls,after i reached dere, i wanted 2 pay e fare..

but 2 my surprise,he declined it..

Baik kan??? wat a kind samaritan..

so reached at Island Ballroom,i sat bside Kaixin--e glitter sticker gurl.. she's also a part-tyme cos she's stil in yr 1 at NJC..

so basically, we didnt do so much of our job,which is great..

we r lyke e tai-tai & datin dere..

chatting, enjoyin lyfe on e comfy sofa..Hai..Best kn.. :o)

sum design on my left hand..i had 2 wear dis 4 my clients 2 see..

cos sum of dem reali dunno wat is Henna??!!

me & Kaixin..check out our gliiter sticker on our hands..

2007-10-22T15:06:00.001+08:00

phew..laz Sat was a hectic but fun outing wif my family & relatives..meriah gilernyer dlm bas..my aunt's family frm Muar joined us too..so u can imagine brape ramai org de dlm bas tu.. well, we managed 2 cover all 15 places at one go..Amek Ko!! each house served wif delicious Yummy food which i totally cant resist..

so Makan,Makan, Makan!!!

esp kueh tat!! jgn nampakkn kueh tat pat aku..habis 1 balang ku bantai.. Dasyat...Takuuut...!!!

well took alot of picz on dat day..(juz check out my family Multiply if u wish 2 c more)..sampai penat mulut nie tersengih... :0)

2007-10-17T13:31:00.000+08:00

how's raya?? mine was ok..stil hav lotsa of places 2 visit..dis Sat wil be Raya outing wif my dad's family side..lyke evry year we went Raya wif our rented Bus..hah kaw,ribut!!! skali dtg umah org dh mcm bwk troop army!!Kena siap duit raye jelar..e gd news is i stil receive duit collection (dh besar gajah pon dpt jugak,lom kawin pe..hehehehe)!!!

as u noe i hav a slight mizunderstanding wif dad..so pagi raye tu biler mintak maaf, so emotional..rite nw we r back as per normal..

*cheerz*

2007-10-11T15:36:00.000+08:00

a song frm Aishah 'Melukut di Tepi Gantang'..a song describe how sad

a person can b when her loved one didnt apreciate her luv & make her wait wihout any assurance dat she wil b loved back..

Di malam yang sunyi

Dudukku termenung sorang diri

Di jendela sepi

Hingga dinihari

Ku menantikan kepulanganmu

Namun kata hanya sekadar

Tinggal kata-kata

Bagaikan melukut di tepi gantang

Begitulah aku Di dalam hidupmu

Ada tiada tak memberi kesan

Hanya aku menanggung

Kerinduan

Dulu pernah kau katakan

Sayang

Ingin mendengarku berlagu riang

Menawar duka laraku

Lupakan saja..Derita yang berlalu

Tapi mengapa dirimu,kasih

Ibarat lalang ditiup angin

Kasihmu diracun oleh kata fitnahpenuh hina

Hingga kini kau biarkan saja..

Diriku menanggung sepi

Dengan irama dukaku

Yang tak bermaknabagimu

2007-10-11T13:19:00.000+08:00

Sedih kan lagu nie..yup, it has bits & pieces of my lyfe journey in dis song..niwae sowie folkz 4 nt updating often..been bz nowadays...wif raya coming up..well ive got no mood 2 blog..itz not easy 4 me 2 tell others abt my probs..wat else in blog..actualy im not 'selling' my story 2 people..but i guess wat im goin thru wil b a useful lesson 2 me..

i had a tiff wif my dad recently..regarding my work..yup,no use 2 tell animore.. itz been 1wk now..jarang kiter tk bual lamer2..he's 1 of my great advisor in lyfe..he's close 2 us dat i can actuali talk 2 him esp abt 'relationshp'..nanti startlar lecture dier..'jgn kecik kan hati org tue,kalo mk ayah dh tkde- jage adik2, Nanti kalo dh kawin; dgr ckp suami, syg mk mertue mcm mk sendri, jgn tingal solat,kalo uat pape biar ikhlas etc'...so in tymes lyke dis, im quite disappointed..dis few days he's not well..normally im e 1 who wil take care of his medicine,diet etc..kesian lak tgk ayah aku nie..tapi bile pikir alek pe dier ckp hari tu, Tuhan je yg tau sakitnyer hati!! but who cares i juz set aside my ego & made him a nice soup..now itz up 2 him whether 2 smile/talk 2 me again..aku tau tk baik dgn org tue kite uat mcm nie..tapi tular kadang2 parents nie nk kiter dgr je ckp dorg..tapi dorg tk penah nk pahm pe kiter nk sbenarnyer.. but to tink abt it,i shldnt b emo..he's trying 2 approach me wif answers but in e wrong attitude...ku nie kan sensitif gilernyer..agak2 mcmane nanti kalo nk salam dier pagi hari raya nanti.. confirm aku sebak.. :.o(

yesterdy,i heard a shocking news..Dear met wif an accident..! i dunno wat 2 say cos tings hapen so fast..but i was blessed dat nothing shld hapen 2 him..or i will regret for lyfe!! lucky 4 him,he was orite..Alhamdulillah..
mayb dis is wat they call it 'fate'...ive learnt dat no matter how 'harsh' our loved ones treated u, they r doin it 4 own gd..so when mishap hapen 2 me dis few wks,i was reminded nt 2 b selfish & tink of my own self..juz treat them well despite hw they treat u..cherish ur loved ones while they are here bside u..cos u wil nvr noe wat lies for us 2moro..

Ramadan dis year was a challenging one 4 me..i always pray dat when it comes to 'disaster', Allah was testing me 2 c hw strong i m in facing challenges in lyfe..

p/s: 2 all my frens; Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,Maaf Zahir & Batin..di hari yg mulia ini,ampun & maaf ku pinta di atas kesilapan lalu..mane yg sngaje/tk sngaje, sowie k gurlz...
esp to Sri, sowie dis year tk sempat nk buke same2..jgnlar marah2.. cheerz!

2007-09-25T14:48:00.000+08:00

Happy b'day 2 u

happy b'day 2 u

happy b'day 2 u my dear ....

happy b'day 2 u !!!!

Each year ur bday reminds me

Dat I reali 1 2 say

I’m very glad I know u;

On ur bday,

I wish 4 u the fulfilment of all ur fondest dreamz.

I hope dat 4 evry candle on ur cake u get a wonderful surprise.

I wish 4 u dat watever u 1 most in life,

it comes 2 u,just e way u imagined it,or better.

I hope u get as much pleasure frm our relationshp as I do.

I look 4ward 2 enjoy our relationshp

for many more of ur bdays.

I'm so glad u were born,

bcos u brighten my life

and fill it with joy...

Happy Birthday!

2007-09-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

Majlis Ugama Islam SingapuraPengisytiharan

Awal Bulan Ramadan 1428H/2007M

Bagi Negara Singapura.

Mengikut kiraan Hisab anak bulan Ramadan tidak ada di atas ufuk Singapura petang tadi kerana telah terbenam lebih awal dari matahari selama 10 minit. Oleh yang demikian esok adalah hari pencukup bulan Syaaban 30 hari dan awal Ramadan 1428H jatuh pada lusa, Khamis bersamaan 13hb September 2007.
Sekian. Wassalamu'alaikum w w.

Syed Isa Mohamed Bin Semait

Mufti Negara Singapura

--i took frm Muis webbie..so 2 all my gang,plz ' Puase jgn tk Puase huh'...----

yippee..im goin 2 mit Dear Mok later...nk mkn KFC lerr..tekak terase nk mkn Bandito & Cheese fries etc..nanti takot kempunan tyme puase...terbayang2 wajah Bandito tu senyum pat gua lar beb...!! CobaaN!!!

SedapP Kan???? Sabar Maya, sabar...

2007-09-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

helo!! u r greeted by e most 'lazy but charming' cat of mine..he simply luvs his picz taken...mengalahkn manusie!! pantang kite ckp cheese, dere he goes...

hmm..1stly, i wud lyke 2 wish Hepi Bday 2 Umie,Reena & Ibu Ben!!!!

utk kali yg pertame, dptlar rase Ibu Ben's coffee cake which is sooo damn nice!!! WOW!

Niwae yesterdy all my supportif uncles, aunts, kuzzens were at Chinapoint Pt 2 gave our support for 678Kids (Naufal & Sarah)...pekik punyer pekik, support punyer support un4tunately dorg dpt tk masok finals dah...but itz ok,we stil hv our chance nxt yr ya..

p/s: helo cik abg oi, best ek gi pancing at Sister's Island...tkpe,enjoy-enjoy..kiter pon nanti nk pancing pat......Pillow Island jek!!! Muahahaha!!

2007-09-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

guess wat..? i came across dis pic.. blang aku camne korang nk jwb kalo org tanyer tempat keje korg patne..tk ke rabak tu??!!

Congrats Diana 4 her newborn baby gerl, Sarah Emelda(name nk glamer jek budak2 skg,bkn main agi..) Congrats Nurun 4 her engagemnt wif Hazmi after 8yrs courtship.. Congrats Rose shifting 2 ur new flat at AMK..Congrats 2 evry1 who celebrated his/her bday recently..Congrats 2 all lar..penatlar ckp satu2.. *Cheers!*

2007-08-29T10:48:00.000+08:00

Yo watz up luvz?? itz been a week since i laz go-blog..i tink i was plain lazee 2 update my blog ler..reali..

niwae laz wkend,me,dear,huda & frenz went to KKH cos dere's dis event---President Challenge Healthcare Charity Run----we were supposed 2 run all e game stallz..quite happening although itz super tiRing...mcm2 org ku jumpe..dari yg kiasu sampai ler si 'suTun'!!! melayan budak2 nie(team 'Meeerage'--wat dat stupid Chris says---) leh uat dgn aku skali 'giler'..we clique wif every1 on dat day veri well..seriously but i cant 4get dat cheerleading grp sak..'SUTUN' abis..!!!

ahakz.. :o)

ok, enuf blogging..niwae 'HEPI 23rd B'DAY TO SRI!! 28/08/07'..hope u success in ur flying career ya..hehehehe..

Picz all e way during e event..

posing wif our Flower belonz..

presenting e cRazEeee ppls!!

eh2 sukenyer Mok..dpt menyelit tgh2..Uke??

deAr was lyke 'Emo' while Huda & gang took e pic..i purposely xtend e zoom so dat i can let u all c wat my dear actuali doing at e back..Haha!!

---Peace no war..no matter wat hapen in lyfe,dun regret..Smile---

2007-08-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

e best feeling dat i hv 2nite----conFuse!!!

reali dunno watz goin thru my mind..

2007-08-15T15:02:00.000+08:00

do u noe dat we spent 2035 days 2gether?? amazing rite?

i tot i juz gave ourselves 90 days 2 prove how far we cud go..

but u hv proven me wrong..

yup thru ups & downs we've been 2gether..

so much laugher, cries, grudges etc..

nah,itz ok..

watz important is u'll nvr fil bored wif my jokez,my naggingz,

my blurness, my sleepy mode(as always) etc..

hehehe..

thx Dear..

u r 4eva my 'Mok' lar!!
gua caya sama lu!!

2007-08-12T13:34:00.000+08:00

hepi bday Harith Gendut!!!!

yup,a small celebration yet superbly hyper-entertaining cos it was once in a full moon my Busu decided 2 make a bday party 4 her son..niwae food was nice..esp my crispy chicken (promote sak! heheehee ).. xcept Huda was nt dere..she had dis dikir thingy at Taman Warisan..itz ok siz, i ate on ur behalf oreadi..Kenyang sgt,Ergh!! alhamdulillah..Thx dear 4 e treat..syg ur bday falls on fasting mth..kalo tk dh leh melantak piza agi ye???

nielah bday boy nyer..'sihat' btol adek sedare ku nie...

blowing e candles...e gurl looks lyke Dini eh??hmmm.. but actuali she's Kiki..

me n Angah..lucky 4 me my other Kepo siz is not ard! Ahakz:o)

wif my loving Mom & bro..Aki..

my Kuzzens,Ijal & Ina; me & Angah..

okie dokies,gtg now..tata-titi-tutu!! Luv u all,world peace! Yeah!

2007-08-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hepi b'day 'Chicha Por'..ahakzz!!!

(blame those China menz behind me!!)

niwae went 2 esplanade to watch e fireworks..

(Semangat mesti ader beb!)

so many kiasu ppls around dat somehow i 'siku' a bangla!! (ambek ko!! padan muker *hehehehe- BIGGEST Grin :o)*)

a quick smile b4 we went back home...Cheeezzzzeee!!!

2007-08-05T15:13:00.000+08:00

a day spent at Sentosa..

itz hawt weather though..

i tot it wil be a nice getaway for us 2 chill/picnic out..

but having fun wif Dear..
spent half a day dere..

b4 heading home, we went 2 VivoCity 2 hav a quick bite..

so starving!!!!

yup! we had NewYork Pizza..aftr quite sumtyme..

tell u, i do lyke it!!!! (opps..we lyke it!!!)

smile..

Yummy!!! nak agi leh???

picz of wat we did in bus 188 on our way home..( itz all candid ok..no instructions needed..amcm dua2 leh jadi model tk??)

2007-07-31T15:14:00.000+08:00

wat a beautiful sight..here i m sitting down alone..reflecting wats in store for me in e near future..

no one may understand e plight dat we face every single day..

sumtymes i fil blessed wif wat i hav..

other tymes i fil restless..

When i tink how many people dere r in dis world, i realize dat my own problems r just a drop in the bucket..

i always tot dat when sumting hapen, dis is a blessing in disguise..

perhaps rite now i havent found e real me..

but who noes,dere is sumting wonderful waiting 4 me..

which i hav 2 b patient & continue praying..

he is 1 of my strength 4 me 2 move on in lyfe..though evrytyme we r lyke 'fire vs fire', i've tried my best 2 b e 'water' which can cool his 'hot' temperature off..i believed dat evry cloud has a silver lining..

frm our relationship, i fil blessed cos even though we argued alot, he was e 1 who taught me how 2 apreciate luv, sacrifices, b thankful of wat we hv & always b strong..

yup,absence makes e heart grow fonder..

2007-07-21T13:29:00.000+08:00

Hepi Wedding..Kak Mimi & Abg B...
~pics during e nikah..~

laz but not lis..Dini Boncit!

2007-07-19T13:52:00.000+08:00

OMG..Aliff e 'whisperer' won Anugerah 07!! yea,makcik2/minah2/ judges vote 4 Allif cos he's got e 'pretty-boy' look...Suare tklar sesedap mane pon..wats make him 2 b e winner simply bcos: stage presentation & looks..Datz it!

i stil choose Taufik!! he've got e voice & looks ( a complete package 2 bcome a star..)..

jgn jealous k bang..juz a humble compliment 2 my idol!!

i stil cant blieve he won???( not being sarcastic but itz not fair..Truly..)

always be my idol...Luv his voice..!

Beautiful Ending- Meninggal Ketika Sujud Di Masjid Nabawi.

i received dis pic frm my cuzzin in Riyadh..isnt it blessed to pass away in dis situation..Insyaallah, Amin..may dis be an example to all of us.. Wallahualam..

2007-07-17T09:52:00.001+08:00

yup...gotta call frm Zahira dat she's getting engaged wif Khai..WOW!! i'm hepi 4 dem..flashed back during Racial Harmony 2001 when we were in Sec5..Khai & Ira became the 'Hindi' couple preparing 2 get married b4 e fire..Ahakz..wif Mr Lim bz wif his videocam, Sanjay became e 'tok sami boncit', Sri & Suzy were e 'usher', tukang rengis2 air!! hahahahaha..den Abg's class was nxt door,kepo seeing watz wif e commotion took place in our class..cos their class was doing 'Hawaiian'..?

niwae im hepi dat at laz Sri gets wat she wants: to be an air-stewardess.. wif Silkair..see, in 1 day i got 2 gd news frm my fwens..nope, in fact 3 cos Abg won his takraw game & he says he cn perform well..so wat i hav 2 say now is : ALHAMDULLILAH!! semue org2 yg ku syg/ingat dpt pe yg mereka impikan slame nie..

Raye 05 wif Wan,Sri, Ira, Khai, Abg & me..at my house..

2007-07-07T17:03:00.000+08:00

hey look at e vid below..itz my fwen,eye-nul! it was abt 3yrs ago during our ITE tymes..she sang at 1 of e skool function which i cant remember.. i was watching e vid where suddenly i saw myself tooo & nurun!!! malunyer..enter frame jek..kalo 1st part jek tkpe..tgh2,nk abis vid pon ade..glamour kjap!! *ahakz*!

2007-07-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

juz a gentle reminder 2 all chocolate lovers lyke me..

below r all e Masterfood Company Chocolate Products (Mars) which r no longer Halal!!

They started using Animal product rennet in it for products that have expiry date after 1 st of October 2007.

boohooo..wat a waste..frm now on, i hv to see the labels correctly b4 i indulge the goooodnez of coklat!

Bounty ?
Celebrations ?
Dove Chocolate ?
Maltesers ?
M&M's ?
Mars Bar ?
Mars Delight ?
Milky Way ?
Skittles ?
Twix ?

p/s: Plz 4wad e msg 2 ur frenz esp chocoholics lyke me!!

2007-07-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

Tears streaming down my face

In yet another fight

The same old thing over and over

But yet the words hurt every time

I'm stupid

There's something wrong with me

The same words every time

And at that point they seem so true

I'm always doing something wrong

Those are the only things that get noticed

But when I do something right

It just doesn't matter

Its doesn't matter what I've done

It all goes back to the same old things

And no matter how hard I try

The stuff I do wrong is all that is noticed

I'm sick of the fighting

Can't take anymore

All of this crying

Sometimes I just wish I was dead!

2007-07-01T12:17:00.000+08:00

went to National Stadium..

yestrdy was e official closing 4 e stadium..

a bit sad cos datz where i watched NDP for few years straight wif my families & frens..

so we went dere wif wan & roslinda..

didnt took alot of pics though cos we were concentrating on the soccermatch btwn S'pore & Austalia ..

fun lar..especiali dere's dis man merepek sey..cant stand him..he wore the Lion shirt but supported e Aussie..dah kene lar tu!

Letz 'head-banging'!

wif Roslinda..

Wan & Ros..

uke amek gambar?

step sedih konon..stadium nk pecah!

laz pic taken at e top of stadium..cant see e massive dancefloor below?

2007-06-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

went 2 chinatown pt yesterday..
to watch naufal & maisarah..
for the quaterfinal One Min Of Fame..

good for dem, got a place in semi-finals..
niwae my life hasnt been good..
bad mood at tymes..
dunnolar..

2007-06-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hawa diciptakan dari tulang rusuk Adam,

Bkn dari kepalanya utk dijadikan atasannya,

Bkn dari kakinya utk dijadikan alasannya,

Melainkan dari sisinya utk

dijadikan teman hidupnya,

dekat pada lengan untuk dilindunginya,

dan dekat di hati utk dicintainya..

i hv read a novel 'Adam & Hawa'..written by Aisya Sofea..Veri romantic story..i hv learnt dat in relationship;be it frens,family,couples or spouse; we shld learn 2 accept each other, respect and be a forgiver..always pray for their happinez & health..tanamkan di hati bahwa sebagai insan, doalah merupakn penawar bagi segalanya...

2007-06-05T13:07:00.000+08:00

otay..tyme 2 update wat ive been doing laz wk..

well..on cheery Sun, we went to Sentosa 4 a nice simple picnic.. reach dere abt 3.30..nice weather..not toooo humid..i didnt get to swim..cos having my 'mens' lor...so hayrie & i accompanied e kiddies to enjoy demself in e pool..im drenched as well..hehehehe..

niwae im having fun taking pics aftr pics wif my kecoh siztaz..my 'mok' became e photographer..wat 2 do..he refuses to 2 take pics..even wif me..no mater wat, words can't describe hw overjoyed im wif my loved onez on dat day..kecohhhh!!!!! lagi2 huda..uke amek gmbar??

...at paLawan BeaCh...

..wiF my SizTaz..

at tHe plaYgrounD... (mcm budak2 ek..?)

on ouR wAy to tHe mErliOn..

wiF my syG....'ShrEk' !!

yesterdy went to Changi Airport..after went back frm Johor.. took Dini & hALifi ard Terminal 1& 2..tengok '0-pane' (Dini style of saying 'aeroplane')..she's veri energetic lar..imagine dlm sky-train pon leh lompat2...she smiled & waved to the other kiddies..veri the peramah..hehehehe!!! so,took some pics of dem..e pics are nt clear though...after editing, i stil can't brighten e picz...but if u loOk carefully, they realy enjoyed demself...

tgk si mentel nie amek gambar...

otay..datz it..to all of u out dere, i luv u lotz!!

2007-06-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

b4 goin out todae,i received sms frm Ain asking me whether i could accompany her to Vivo..she's got interview..but i told her i couldnt make it cos miting up my fwenslar..poor her,i dun tink she went for it...but nvr mind,i told her nxt tyme i wil find e tyme 2 go out wif her..( hope she's ok oreadi)..

so here we go..went out wif Dayana todae to Lot 1..went to e bazar(nothing dere, so boring, such tyme-consuming)..supposedly wif Rose as well..but laz min she can't make it..ape dah..but can't wait till next miting coz she told us dat she wil treat us 2 sumwhere special... (hmmm..suke org nk blanje mkn!)

niwae im glad 2 mit dis old fwen of mine..both of us are ecstatic lar!! shared gossips after gossips...catching up wif all the latest news...eat to our stomach content at Long John Silver after dat...hope 2 mit my other fwens esp Sri, Syidah, Ainul, Hany, Nurun, Rose, Kak Marz, Kak Ita, Umah, Neesha,Diana etc..& my kuzzens...Miz dem 2 e MAX!!!!

......wif Dayana at e NTUC (sempat jgn tk sempat!!)...

a quick smile b4 we headed home..

dear...do u noe how terribly i m...missing u?? u r out dere enjoyin urself..fishing..but here i m cant sleep n updating dis 'go-blog' of mine..ney..itz ok..i dun mind reali..as long as u remember 2 cal me den itz fine..if not,u wil get a 'superly huge jumbo' punch on ur tummy!! hai YAKkkk!!!

p/s: can't wait 2 eat my Toblerone coklat...wif SourCream PotatoChips...YUUUUMMMMYY!! no wonder im bcoming 'chubbier & montelz'!! thx 2 my 2 bestest fwens...JUNkie-sNackie!!! Muahahahaha!!

*evil grin*

2007-05-31T15:54:00.000+08:00

Evry relationship has its pluses and minuses. For a strong relationship that satisfies both the partners, i hav 2 consider myself, Hayrie & e character of our relationship. i reali hope dat we cn manage to get into a relationship & hav a long trouble-free journey..... today,i hv read through a couple of advice which i tot useful 4 all of u who read dis..mayb itz true cos not all of us r purrfect..e relationshp bcomes strong once the partners realize dat they understand each other.. dat bond of understanding can cross any obstacle on e way 2 bliss..gd luck to ur love journey!

Many relationships break down because of communication. The partners do not communicate their true feelings to each other. Not only that, they also assume that the other will understand what is in their mind. Good communication is one more essential element. With good communication, you can solve many issues which otherwise may blow up your relationship. Communication demands very good understanding of each other and understanding verbal and non-verbal signals.

Every relationship that we have, is to make us feel happy. We relate to each other to get and give joy to each other in various ways. Sometimes the relationships don't go as planned and remain stagnant, with no meaning. But what if a relationship comes down to a level where one of the partner feels that he/she is getting destroyed? That relationship is bad and destructive. Unless there is some reason that can be identified and rectified, the relationship should be broken.

The game of blame. That not only kills a beautiful relationship but creates hatred between two lovers. Why those who were in deep love suddenly found that everything was wrong with each other and the relation? Let us look at a deep relationship. In such a relationship, everything is ours. It is neither yours nor mine. Its all ours. Even if one partner blunders, the other partner supports him/her. Same with joy. Both experience the joy of each others achievements.

In personal relationships, we are not supposed to punish the other person in any way for whatever fault. At the most, we have the freedom to move away if we find that our partner keeps on repeating destructive behavior. We should either move away or come together again. To continue with the blame game and living together will not produce any result other than pain. Blames are not the disease but the symptom of the disease that is hurting your relationship.

2007-05-27T00:56:00.000+08:00

whoaaaaaa..best ar...yestrday was Dini's bday...it was a Blast! well actuali itz on Thurs..so we've got lotsa of food readi on e table lyke e laksa,'bone'(sup tulang lar...),chicken wings/nuggets/fries(speciali ordered frm Do & Me)etc..not forgetting the greeeen bday cake...so aniwae i bought Dini a Barney Doodle Board & a musical 'Barney' Songbook...well i reali hope she lykes it.. niwae dis cutie pie got lotz of presentz lar..itz so nice 2 b kid..young & chubby...if only i could turn back tyme...Haiiiiizzzz....toooo bad dear can't b dere cos he got 2 werk..itz ok, wat past is past..in future he cn try 2 celebrate wif Dini again..i enjoyed maself though even wifout Hayrie...hahaaha..cunning huh?? ney..juz kidding!

2007-05-22T14:47:00.000+08:00

helo dere..

i'm feeling kinda lonely rite now..

didnt noe watz running thru my mind..

stil confused of wat we've been thru..

as if we r trapped sumwhere..

& we cant solve it!!!!

but no matter wat happens, i noe u wil always be around 4 me..

although how bz u r wif ur takraw..
wif ur fishing...

or bz working...
find urself the tyme 2 rest..

dun stres up...

no matter wat happens, i will alwayz try 2 b dere 4 u...

2007-05-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

went bowling wif dear, ayah & abah..at CSC Bukit Batok..yesterdy..i asked huda to accompany me but dat hippo reali pemalas lar..niwae had fun although i had hard tyme catching up my points wif e 3 heroes.. overall,itz fun cos i get to beat my dear's point with strikes at first but he stil win me lar..itz ok...after dat we went home 2 my place for a mini bday feast for mak..actualy her bday is today..but we celebrated yestrdy cos today everyone wil be back home late ..so we bought her a choco mint cake wif Indian rojak..thx dear for the rojak..

2007-05-17T14:18:00.000+08:00

ok2,i noe itz been a looooong tyme since i updated my blog...im so damn lazy lar..n i had probs wif dis blog cos it juz cant upload my pics!! sharkz!
baru nak meriah nak load gambar...haiz.. niwae i had so much fun laz weekend at the chalet wif my BIG,JUMBO size families celebrating MOTHER'S dAY..got all the dads to sing & dedicate romantic stuffz to the moms..the children sang & dance..got all the food bbqued..crazy tings happening in the house itself...the most touching part was when we asked Cik Amat to say a few words to the moms..itz heartbreaking to see Cik Amat's reaction..mcm nak nangis gua ckp sama lu..he's lonely without Ibu Ben on his side to celebrate the occasion..after dat,he called Ibu Ben in Japan..kecian Ibu..itz ok,we'll get to enjoy it again next yr wif u..insyaallah..
(at laz i can upload my picz..ambik ko..)

on our way to the chalet..

hepi nyer semue....

2007-05-04T13:21:00.000+08:00

When I ate today at noon
All I could think about was you

Wishing you was here with me too

Wishing I could feed you with my spoon

Hoping someday I'll see your smile again..

I don't know if I can take all this pain

Knowing that I am here and you are there

Thinking about the times we had and will not have..

You are the best there ever was and will be

There is nothing to explain you, but lovely

Even when I was sad you made me happy..

I just don't know what to do

I just hope one day, I get to see you..

p/s: im terribly missing my 'huggie boncit bear' now..

2007-05-03T12:46:00.000+08:00

been a long time i havent update my bloggie..no tyme ler..niwae went to IMM Giant yesterdy wif Huda & Dear..went shopping 4 the BBQ.. we had so much fun checking out on watz stuff we should buy..Huda & Dear as usual lyke 'cat & dog'..im lyke the 'mom' trying to resolve the 'kiddos' from their nonsense..itz totally madness!!

*Smack Forehead*

accompanied Huda completing her journal at McDonalds...

Dear as usual gettin' impatient waiting for Huda..cos he's craving for Burger King..!! Haiyah!

Nak kasi diam,dgr lagu jiwang..pandai Huda uat Dear diam..

step manje jek posing...

Perasan maself...tkde org layan..

we're done wif our shopping..

on our way back,waiting for the cab...

smile..

Bluek...

Little india Xcursion

2007-04-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

went to Mustafa Centre yesterdy wif dear & his family as well..
im veri xcited cos dis is the 2nd tyme since i was in pri 3!!
so we reached dere abt 6..Wow,dh mcm pat India beb gua ckp sama lu..
punyalar ramai 'ikan keli' (like duh,itz their place wat??).. & they lepakz everywhere around the Little India.. sum sitting by the road side,staircases, fields & even inside the shopping centre itself!! tell u sumting, im actualy quite seram wif all the banglas around us.. im afraid they cant kip their hands in their own pockets & their fingers wil start to 'wondering'!! haiz,luckily my 'bodyguard' was dere 4 me..but overall itz fun cos lotz of tings 2 see..i managed 2 grab hold a perfume..ramai sgt org sampai leceh nk shopping.. Back frm MC, we went to this Bengali shop selling Roti Nan..quite nice..but Abg doesnt drink the plain water cos he said he felt sick by looking at the glass i tink..but after dat. we went 2 Adam Rd to eat a proper meal..ikan bakar!!!! SEDAApppp!!!

2007-04-20T11:40:00.000+08:00

im not asking much frm u..

wat i nid is ur trust..

i didnt ask aniting more..

u 1 me 2 listen 2 wat u say..

but when i tell u how i fil,

haizz..i'm CrazYYY abt u dear!!

::boring-boring::

2007-04-17T18:26:00.000+08:00

surf e net to book 4 bbq pit on 12/5/07..
itz goin 2 b b'day celebrations,annnivrsryz as well as Mother's Day...!!
weeHoo!!
Ibu Ben told me dat i shld be e organiser 4 e family event..e food, xcessories, games 4 kids,gifts etc..but i wun do it myself..
got huda & e rest 2 settle tings wif me 2..mak veri xcited..she cant stop tinking..! (of coslar, her bday n Mother's Day rite falls on e same week)..
this May byk org bday tau..juz nw, hayrie called me 2 say dat Ain also making pit on e 12th..well dats great! bleh join?? hehehe ;)

2007-04-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

phew..tiring day 2dae..me & my guy accompanied huda 2 take her laptop at henderson..lucky for us, my guy drove us dere..if not,it wil be MadneSS!! sape nak gi layan.. back frm collecting, huda & me went 2 IMM 2 buy her laptop bag..she told me itz Obit 2 wear dat bulky bag 2 school ler..haiz!
(lucky 4 us, hayrie send us dere & help me 2 put the laptop at hiz house 1st..he offered even if i say itz Ok..thx U dear)..
so after we bought all her skool stuff,at laz we went back despite the heavy rain..KebabOM!
but no wat happened aftr dat realy makes me careful.. i dun wish 2 tell much further..itz btwn me & my guy..wat matters nw is i will nt try 2 make other people suffer 4 wat im havin thru..

hepi 63mths AnNivirSary 2 Us!! no matter wat u tink abt me, juz noe dat i didnt take u 4 granted..

2007-04-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round
Dragging me down
Making a sound because you wanna
I guess that's why I like messing with you
Putting you through
A lesson or two, because I'm gonna
Before I go my own wayI just gotta say
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
'Cause I know I'm better off on my own,
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
Because I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown
Leave me alone
There was the time I thought you were the one
Having some fun
Getting it done
What an illusion'Cause you were trying to take control of me
That couldn't be, I need to be free of this confusion
Don't give me a guilt trip, because I'm so over it
Don't turn around and don't look back
I see right through all your selfless acts

...Longggg nite..

2007-04-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

took e train frm CCK all the way 2 Changi Airport yesterday..

juz 2 get the car frm abg Ben..

we went 2 east coast park 2 check e rite spot 4 e BBQ on 12/5..

at laz we went 2 sailing centre where we found dis place,

near toilet(tu penting oiiii) & dere's shelter..

nxt we sit underneath pokok kelapa,eat john cheeze..

seDapppp!!! yummy..

we r like making an advert on dat roti,puji sambal sedaplar..

only ting is the planes are our backgrd music..Deafening!

p/s: ade hati nk dgr misteri jam 12 tapi dua2 takut..

ThouGhts Of The Day

2007-04-12T11:44:00.000+08:00

1. I care for you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man is worth your tears, and the one who is ,won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when your are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON

2007-04-12T11:13:00.000+08:00

How i fil now..

I admit I were never the perfect one... I was never always there... I didn’t make you smile at times but there is one thing I admit I did.. I was the best person I could be for you...Though I haven’t told you how much I care, how much you mean to me, it's not a good to say that I don’t value you, if you only know how much fear losing you then, you'll understand how much I care.I fear that someday time would keep us apart & you might forget me, but before it happens, I hope that you have felt, even for a single chance that I have cared for you best way I know!If ever things would change and your love would fade, I’d still not break the promise I made. if you let go I’ll accept and there's nothing I can do but I’ll be there and still love you...

Heart Talk

2007-04-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

from Rina's Point of View

yestrdy,me and hayrie trying to figure out how to help my sis frm having struggling relationship wif her boyfren..i didnt tell him aniting but hayrie seems 2 noe cos he observed 4 quite sometimes..
But lets juz talk abt us k..frm my conversation wif hayrie laz nite, i realised i can actually talk 2 him wif every single prob dat i hav..last time, i realy cant relate wif wat im havin thru my mind n discuss wif him..cos he is a guy of many Do's & Don'ts..lyke duh..Boring tau..! who noes he change 4 the better..InsyaAllah..

p/s: kalo awak terbace,jgn marah ye..nie luahan hati je..

AT LAST!!

2007-04-10T18:51:00.000+08:00

at last both of us have our own blog 2gether...
so dis is kinda like journal 2 to us on wat we had been doing every single day..
since dis is our 1st post, we r going 2 make it short & simple ya..
be assure dat we wil update our events to share it wif u..but majority of the times, im e one updating,hayrie wun..die malaz..tau bace jek eh?? so unwind urself wif the vids below k??

.:*a Luver is one who accepts ur past, support ur presents & encourages ur future*:.

An Evening at Shangri-La Hotel

Little india Xcursion

::boring-boring::

...Longggg nite..

ThouGhts Of The Day

Heart Talk

AT LAST!!

.:a Luver is one who accepts ur past, support ur presents & encourages ur future:.